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Support Me haha

2006-07-11T00:12:00.000+08:00

ok it nth new but thn im running a errand service where of cuz u will be charged a price ha...so if u all need the service or if anyone u know need it do contact me..check out the website too www.geocities.com/samjh7...dun ask me y i always no update the blog cuz i oso dunno...jus dun haf the mood haha...anyway i created the blog more for platyin witf html rather thn blog...

Night Safari

2006-05-22T23:14:00.000+08:00

haha went night safari last fri...tt day friday thn nth to do ma so jus go lo...bring dear go oso she no go b4 haha...nt bad la night safari quite nice but ex lolx entrance fee was 28 bycks per person incluing tram ride...thn went until 11.40pm haha took the last bus to city ex oso 4 bucks haha but thn worth it la once in awhile spend a bit still ok haha...hmmm back to sch stuff damn boring la projects and test...common test in 2 weeks time shit la somemore tis sem no study break dunno how to die liao...doing my project now tink tt all for now le ba...tc all

Boring Shit!

2006-05-05T22:09:00.000+08:00

argh wat a boring day it is...had my 1st business law lecture damn boring la whole lecture dunno wat he talkin jus knew tt he is like chanting argh sch gonna sux tis sem gt so many freaking module meaning there more D subject haha...anyway nth much happen lately except that day on labour day went to sembawang wif gf and my family bring her go see monkey haha...cute monkeys like her oops...thn after tt went pasir ris prawning...sux la paid 43.50 to catch prawn in the end din catch only but gt 8 fish instead argh damn du lan stupid thing nxt time dun go there liao go elsewhere...go fish better...tink that all...sch sux lolx...

The Come Back!

2006-04-26T01:36:00.000+08:00

whahaha the come back, no no it not anythin of coming back from where or watever u are tinkin it a jus a post to say im blogging again ha...hope tis time it for long always kinda lazy to blog.nth much to say anyway sch life always the same wake up-go sch-study-go home-tv-slp and repeat again boring life...dun ask me y i din go out cuz im the anti social kind haha going out is not so often...always broke no job!!! someone tell me a lobang and let me work...ok so nt much happening in my life jus those normal routine but there a major one tt happened last yr...yes it last yr u din read wrongly i found her hehe...been together for 4 months and going on...ok now im goin to bed update again tml or when im in the mood haha...tc...oh and no more of those signature...it of no use now hahaha...

Confused

2005-11-27T19:56:00.000+08:00

Confused

Life

2005-11-03T01:26:00.000+08:00

life is jus like a blank piece of paper u jus gotta try every colour u can find on it but most of the time before u can find the colour tt most fits u there already aint much space for other colours if not thn the piece of paper may already be used up...but always remember there always 2 side to a piece of paper dun give up if u cant find it as there always the other side to continue ur quest dun give up hope until the last minute a miracle could happen any time even during the last minute of ur life...dun jus say it all about fate...fate is oso somethin that we create as we go...so remember there always 2 side to a piece of paper so make full use of it instead of colouring the whole space jus draw a line and u will haf space for more...every morning we choose whether to pass a day happily or unhappily both is oso for passing a day so y dun we jus choose to pass it happily and enjoy the day...

Fucking Exams

2005-09-13T01:34:00.000+08:00

hmmm....been a long time since i last post...well feel kinda bored todae so just post...jus finsh my BMGT exam todae and it like shit...din noe wat to write...confirm fail liao de now only can hope i pass overall...i lazy to repeat ar thn go back see the stupid tutor again...nw still left wif 2 more paper so guess gonna pass those 2...life so boring nowadays nothing to do dun even haf mood to do any designs or watever...kinda wasting my life away nw...sianz...argh so bored hating school now argh!!! guess that all nothing else to write le...tc all

When You Are Missing Someone

2005-08-10T23:39:00.000+08:00

Have u ever missed someone
and felt
terrible
because u think tat he/she doesn't miss u?

Missing someone is a terrible but at the
same time,
sweet feeling.
U will be sitting around wondering if u
meant
anything to him/her.
Thinking if he/she ever cares about u.

Rushing to the phone once it rings
hoping that it's
him/her.

Looking out of the window hoping that
he/she will
surprise u by appearing downstairs.

Sitting in front of the television but
thinking of
her
missing the final episode of your
favourite show.

Laying on your bed, thinking of the last
time u wen
out together.

Thinking of how nice it will be to sit
under the stars
again, talking about everything, your
dreams,
plans, future.

Logging on to the internet hoping to see
him/her
online.

When u realise that he/she isn't online
and did not
return your page, u will start worrying if
he/she is
okay.

Missing someone is a way of growing up i
guess.
It exposes u to loneliness.
It teaches u how to cope with being
lonely and let u
know that there is actually a feeling
known as
emptiness.
Sometimes it feels good to miss someone.
U know that u really care and u indulge
in the
feeling of loving/caring for him/her.
But missing someone and not knowing if
he/she is
feeling the same is terrible.
U feel as if u are being left alone.
So if u miss someone, tell him/her and
let them
know.
At the same time, ask if they miss u.

Don't let the feeling of missing someone
become
jealousy or paranoid.
If u are the one being missed and u know
it, let the
other party know.
if u miss him/her too, tell them.
Don't let them wait.

Trying to but i CAN'T

2005-08-01T23:47:00.000+08:00

im tryin to forget u...but cant...im still missing you...though i know u dun feel the same but as long as ya happy im ok...i dun expect u to be my gf or wat but jus let ya noe i care for ya and i be there for ya...tryin to forget u now...

Cycling

2005-07-18T12:31:00.000+08:00

went for my 2nd nite cycling trip yst so fun...ride over to chinatown thn to bugis thn to lavender back to bugis and to dover...kao halfway saw 4 police car 3 was seen when doin stunt ha...one we cross the traffic light without waitin for the thing to turn green....2nd one we were criss crossing each other path in the opposite lane...thn another one the police stop and ask us cycle single line...haha..on the way to dover saw somethin beri er xin...a cat body...was run over by the car at the body i thing...thn can see the flesh the leg was away frm the body kinda gross...thn frm dover go hm le...oh ya at bugis there almost kanna hit by a topid taxi driver...was cycling along the taxi thn one guy suddenly open it door almost knock into it...but thn still like the last one more...cycle up the expressway facing esplanade...up there and look across at CBD and esplanade the view is so nice..but goin up quite tired...nxt time i go there again im gonna gt my cam there take a pic and show ya guys...still missing ya...was thinkin of ya when cycling...tc...

I wanna tell you, but i don't dare

2005-07-17T21:16:00.000+08:00

haiz...im still missing you...i realli wanna tell you but i dont dare...i scare u wun talk to me after i tell u...sigh...was happy to be around you last 2 day...went study wif ya and yst went to eat steamboat...im contented jus to see ya happy...wish ya luck and happiness ba...tc always

Break Coming

2005-07-09T12:28:00.000+08:00

sigh...break in the nxt 2 wk...dun realli like tis break though...break mean i cant meet ya after sch le and i dunno wat excuse to use and ask u out...will be missing u for 2 wk i tink...or maybe if ya workin i go find u ba...remember hor mus study dun quit cuz u dunno...it a new thing everyone oso dunno de jus study harder ba...wish ya luck...

Jealousy?

2005-07-02T01:52:00.000+08:00

went to watch movie with u todae...was fun but dunno y kinda sianz oso...maybe it cuz he is there ba...though the person may nt be him but thn i still feel funni...tt wat called jealousy? maybe but i dunno jus dun like to see the way u and he...haiz...dunno la...dunno y but im still missing u...prayin for u...as long as ya happy im happy...be the star in the sky...may not be seen but always be there...

Found You

2005-06-27T03:12:00.000+08:00

i dunno hu the u that u haf found but i noe it u that i haf found...i was so happy when u will still joke wif me talk to me...ever since i ask u tt u were kinda like avoidin me...tt wat i tink maybe it nt...but u are nt replyin my sms as often as last time le...and tis is making me regret askin u...but thn if tt wat u do i respect it...was so happy the last 2 day...went out wif u though wasnt realli only the 2 of us but being around u already makes me happy...seeing u happy already makes me feel happy...love doesnt need to haf tt person be ya stead but knowing they are happy is already gd...if it urs i will be urs no matter hw mani round it will go...but if it nt even if u chain tt person up it still wun be urs...i dunno wat u may be thinkin but as long as ya happy wif it i will respect it...take care always...

Something Wrong With The Radio

2005-06-24T12:20:00.000+08:00

ok guys...somethin wrong with the radio...they switch over to using realplayer for the program so b4 i found some way to use tt radio wun be up...but if u wan u can still go to their webby to listen but radio station HitRadio will still be avaliable...a nt bad station oso can try listening...eng songs though

Missing You

2005-06-24T00:38:00.001+08:00

i dunno why but i realli do miss you...wat i feel frm u is different frm wat i feel from others...im realli sad...i dunno why everytime i think of the stuff u haf said or stuff u did i feel sad...like when passing through the bus stop...the route we take...haiz...things u haf said oso...maybe tis wat they say is love ba and nt like...im jus missing you...hope one day ya thinkin will change...waiting...

Death Is Just Part Of Life

2005-06-18T00:27:00.000+08:00

ok what happened was that my grandma passed away...she went into coma before she pass away on 9/6/05...sad haiz...but that part of life...jus gotta move on...anyway during the funeral amelia and gene came...thanks for tt...well think tt all dun wanna say too much bout it...dun wanna recall anythin...may you rest in peace grandma

Something Happen

2005-06-10T13:18:00.000+08:00

ok i wun be posting for some time...something happened at home...post when im done wif tt...tc everyone

my life is so damn fuck up

2005-06-04T17:10:00.000+08:00

argh!!!!my life is so damn fuck up startin to hate stuff around me...my life my school...school totally sux lecture like shit tutorial like shit lot of stuff to do and wan us to concentrate during school hours what fuck it this lo...school end at 4 thn give up so much work do and do and do where gt time slp thn nxt day early in the morning need to wake up liao...hw they wan us concentrate fuck the school la...what the fuck is the world coming to...making everyone so stress up so fuck up...compete this compete there...sometimes i wonder whether it should be good if we were back to stone age...life jus so simple those days no money issues to worry about no restriction jus do wat u wan to do...

u dun haf to worry bout tax or watever shit stuff the goverment is collecting now...there no flirts in those time...like mean like dun like mean dun like no one goes around playin with others feelings...im not writing tis cuz i kanna rejected or watever jus somethin i feel...it so stress in today world u haf to compete against others u haf to be scare of tis scare of that...backstabbers hypocrite and others...u wun noe wat they are thinkin it may be against u it may be not...there are jus so many problem we haf to think of...even in student times...in the old days student life is the happiest life u can gt...everyone so cheerful so happy...look at students nowadays...everyone jus so stress up...u haf to think of so many factor even when u are only a students...haf to gt tis cert tt cert and without any cert it useless...u cant gt a job...last time jus one o'lvl cert will gt u quite a high position later in the years a diploma follow by degree and look at now...every degree is eveywhere what the use of tt degree...u needa gt wat master wat bachelor...but think...by the time u gt all those u would haf spend half of ur lifetime studyin what is this i spend half of my lifetime studyin work for another half...there no retirement cant u see retirement age is gettin higher by the year...we cant enjoy life...there maybe some who can but most of us cant...u jus haf too much things to worry about to care about to think about...

there family money life...no money u cant do anythin...ppl are also gettin more realistic in the past woman will follow a man wherever he go even if he a poor guy...but look now no money no talk...there oso the neighbour...last time everyone know each other jus walk pass any door and there will be ppl sayin hi hello how u doin...but look now what do we see when we get home...closed door everywhere where the neighbour ties...there none left...everyone is now a loner...all cope in their own home doing their own stuff...they are not interacting...what the world coming to...jus so fuck up...sometime jus hope a big meteor will hit earth and restart everythin frm scratch...get us out of tis stress up world...

and now im oso damn fuck up to stay at home...i dun wana go home it too boring there nth to do...i wanna go elsewhere...travel around the world...if i haf the money now i sure will stop my studies and travel around the world...we need a break...everyone need a break...break frm the stressful world...i wanna run away from home go stay outside...feel the nite enjoy the nite...last time wat u see in the sky are all stars but wat u see now...satallite...and it so polluted air aint as fresh as last time...they only time u can haf fresh air in the world now is during the wee hours...where there the least vehicle and the morning dew and stuff...air is the morning are jus so refeshing so relaxing...life jus so hard in these days...to get a topid cert which u might not even use u needa pay a few thousand bucks...to me poly is jus another road...at the end of the road it a cert...a cert we might not even use...it will jus be another piece of paper inside the file...so y do we still gt it...because ppl are lookin at ur cert and not ur abilities...they rather hire someone who haf cert rather thn someone who willing to learn hardworkin cause they feel it better to haf a cert a piece of paper...look at those people so called ah bengs...they may appear bad to some but thn do you know of the good points...all of us are jus prejudiced towards them...once u see someone who are dressed like one u conclude that he a ah beng but do you know that ah beng sometime are even better thn those so called gentlemen out there...they are loyal there always there for frens...they treat friendship seriously...not like some ppl frens are jus steppin stone...to let them get to a higher point...let them achieve better things...tis kind of ppl shld take a look at themself...and reflect bout that...

i haf so much to say but jus cant gt it down in words...i dun wanna close my eyes...once closed thoughts flow in all of which are unable to pen down...u can only think of it...i saw a fren blog todae...after reading it i was sad not to tears but there a kind of sour feeling there...haiz...the world is changing so much tt ppl are only looking in front and not behind...they dun look back to see how life like last time and how life like now...tt of no concern to them...they only look forward...sigh wat the world coming to...

I saw him there with a scythe waiting for me

Im Learning Magic

2005-05-30T23:28:00.000+08:00

hmm...seems like i haf not posted for 3 days le...well been too busy lately to post busy practising my magic skill...practice make perfect haha...well learnt 2 tricks but thn there one tt hasn't been mastered yet so only have 1 trick left...ok if i still type bout magic it will be non-stop

todae was suppose to be in school at 11am...so last nite went to play snooker with my cousin and by the time we finish it was 12.30 thn i was telling him forget it go eat first anyway also gonna take cab no matter wat...so when to eat, ate finish sat there and chat chat bout so mani thing kinda like some heart talking anyway we were chatting away and before we knew it, it already 3am oh my thn i was thinkin aiya since tml 11am go school now also 3am le might as well wait for first bus in the end left the eating place and went to his house and ton...thn was talking and doing stuff until 6am thn went to the bus stop...thn when on the bus was thinking wha later when i alight sure alot of ppl look at me...ppl go school thn me jus go home...but thn suddenly remember there are having HOLIDAYS argh!!! how i wish im in sec school now thn i can holiday also...haiz...poly sibei tough ar... i can't haf my 10hr of sleep lolx...

oh todae the whole day was complaining bout my laptop...so heavy argh...was hurting my shoulder sia...sibei sianz...sianz ar everyday needa bring laptop heavy ar...sianz...hmm...but thn if buy light weight ones thn the stuff are more to external kind...most of the stuff are outside dun really like that also...hmm...think that all needa go sleep haben slept from yesterdae

Im Alone

2005-05-27T22:00:00.000+08:00

oh my todae LMS class im the only one from my class aiyo but nvm la...gotta know a few more fren though quite fun la tt class crap alot din even noe what im suppose to do only know needa present a short drama...anyway i bought 2 2nd hand book todae poa and marcoecon but thn the person jus msg me she cant find the cd for poa so ask me wanna refund ma...suppose to pass me on tue de...but nvm i go see the cd can share onot if can thn no need refund lo...it much cheaper buyin 2nd hand i got it for round 20 bucks cheaper...somemore there some underline here and there guess it would be of much use...oh after my LMS went to play pool wif Kervin my new fren...hmmm...his pool gd thn i anyhw play lolx...his fren nt bad also...seems like i found some pro...but i dun realli like tt pool centre...gib me a ah beng kind of feel think nxt time go mambo though nt realli gd but thn better thn there la...after tt went with Kervin to the bus stop and took 961 jus found out tis bus go until clementi also well the bus journey quite fast i tink din realli take note of the time...reach hm round 8 like tt

Oh ya todae went to qtss take my cert also...clara told me if by 30may haben take thn needa go MOE take thn needa pay 10bucks also dunno la but better be safe thn sorry so go take lo...thn saw jinyi also at the bus stop walk thn suddenly someone wave to me on closer look thn noe is her...she changed quite alot sia...better nw i guess...anyway take le cert saw sairi thn talk awhile after tt chiong to sch sianz ar fri start at 3 thn till 5 in the middle of the day...thn even wk is 1-5...sianz ar 3-5 b4 tt cannot go out after tt go out also sianz...and im still having bad hair day sianz...haiz hope for a better hair day nxt wk ba...

Oh My Im Gonna Fail

2005-05-26T18:44:00.000+08:00

oh my im gonna fail my studies i don't know what all the lecturer are talking about...what marcoeconomics, BCA, written communication and some others la don't know what they talking about also argh!! sianz ar...stupid school teach so chim de thing for what haiz...and it so boring in school everything so far away needa walk here walk there...the books also expensive sia 30+ bucks for one book and the way some lecturer speak like lulluby can sleep ar...and they expect us to do hmwk when we don't know what hell they talking about argh!!! ppl say poly life relax i don't think so sia sianz...nxt wk everything gonna end at 4pm so late sia...and fri end at 5pm argh!!! poly isn't relax...wonder how i gonna pass sia...

Oh ya im getting bad hair day lately also argh!! can't find the feel to style it back so vex bout it...also found out that the girl i saw at the oritentation camp was in the same course saw her todae during lecture...praying for a better day tml free of bad hair

Second Day

2005-05-25T16:57:00.000+08:00

hmm...school ain't tt bad todae but still it boring maybe because it the first wk of school...anyway todae lecutre were still ok but the poa one i dun like the lecturer the way she talk beri fan and it nt interesting makes me wan to sleep...Robert and Roche was sleepin through the whole lecture haha...i din sleep but i slept at the first lecture the thing bout wat written communication don't know what she talking also too tired to listen to her needa ask some ppl some day...after tt went to atrium and wanna buy some books but it so crowded so forget it thn went canteen lazy eat also see so mani ppl i sianz liao...oh and i saw some ppl frm queenstown they were there for some accounting quiz saw john eugene jiaming and reynold (forgot hw to spell his name). Finished eating thn went to atrium again cause of tt stupid Alan wan to top up ez link card dun wan say earlier make us walk back again tired sia...tink tt all hope a better day tml

First Day Of School

2005-05-24T15:17:00.000+08:00

Well...todae the first day of school not really that bad as i have thought...every lecturer were briefing us on the module lot of crap though haha...quite boring hearing the lecturer brief us thn we were doing out own stuff instead of listening haha...also Alan and me were passing paper around to let ppl in our class to write down their contacts seems like my class have 18 ppl i think out which 6 are guys haha...todae lesson were suppose to end at 4 but thn because first week dun need to go tutorial so lesson was until 12 but again the second lecturer said since todae is our first day in np she will let us off early so in the end tink 11.30 like tt we go hm le...everyone was so happy haha...also found out that this friday i will be going to school at 3...sianz ar so late thn finish at 5 sianz there 2 time slot one is morning de until 10 only but me unlucky kanna afternoon de...

Anyway after school finished we wanted to go for lunch thn asked the gals whether wan to join us onot thn after asking some said anythin but some needa go first after tt the stupid Roche say nvm la another time thn make me so paiseh ask ppl liao thn nw tell them another time stupid Roche. Went to Bukit Timah Plaza eat after tt play pool quite fun la win some lose some...played for 1 hour plus i guess dunno la thn after tt went home took bus with Robert and Alan to clementi and change to train Alan needa go Raffles Hospital to take his medical report and Robert was going home...chat abit during the journey and part with them when i arrived at my stop...

Oh ya yesterdae night almost can't sleep haha...cause the thought of after the sleep my days of freedom are over LOL...thn dun wan sleep...haha but in the end also needa sleep if not my dark circle gonna worsen...hope tml will be a better day dun so sianz

School Starting Tomorrow

2005-05-23T21:17:00.000+08:00

Sianz school starting tomorrow le don't know should be happy or sad. School start mean needa study no free time le but then if it still don't start it will be so bored at home. Anyway last night went out round 12am went to play snooker and pool with my cousin after that stayed over at his house. Long time no play snooker le then first game all gone case haha...after bit sort of like warm up then not bad liao le anyway out of 4 game i won 2 not bad la haha...after that play pool thn lost overall sia haha...and there a bunch of don't know what guy or maybe gay their voice so ah kua then talk like thai ppl but then they are cantonese cause i overheard some of the coversation.

Anyway this morning or maybe afternoon ba my uncle called said my grandma sickness gt worsen abit then they brought her to a doctor and the doctor say ask her go hospital better but then she don't wanna go so asked me go and see her. Stayed at her house for dinner also round 7.30 like that went home to prepare for school tomorrow sianz...school start le...hope can see some chio bu hahahah...saw one that dya during the orientation thing matured lookin nice...but not same class as me and i also don't know her class hope gt fate meet again ba...

Star Wars Episode III

2005-05-22T17:45:00.000+08:00

Watched the Star Wars Episode III yesterday at Suntec Eng Wah cinema. Eng Wah cinema not like golden village, they doesn't show advertisement first. I was like late for 5 mins and the show had already started and i missed the first few minutes of fighting scene argh!!! Anyway the tickets were free don't know where my mama got it also and she gotten 3 somemore hmm...seems like some company thing cause her boss were there also and there some other company staff also i guess. Actually the show was to be watched by my 2 sister and 1 fren of theirs but they can't find a friend to watch so there an extra ticket and my mama don't want to watch also so i gotta go in order not to waste the ticket anyway i had nothing on that day.

Back to the show, the show overall is not bad i guess can't really compare it to the previous episode as i didn't watch the previous ones. This episode shows time during the war and why Anakin became Darth Vader guess it kind of a flashback if i didn't remember wrongly this seems to be the last episode of the Star Wars series and it is a remake of episode 3. For me i only like the scene where there is fighting and machines. The robots they showed are so fascinating so strong and nice and the aircrafts also. And this the first time i watched Star Wars in cinema and till yesterday did i know that it Darth Vader and not Dark Varder what a misunderstanding i have over this year haha. Anyway the show was around 2 hour 15minutes after the show went to meet my mama and papa for dinner. Went to some place near the kallang indoor stadium which had a horror theme restaurant also but everytime i go it closed from what they wrote at the entrance it seems like they only serve booking and not walk in meaning you have to book for a function before you can dine inside. Went home after finishing and slack around but lazy to blog haha. Oh also do take some time out and listen to the star wars hokkien version think it some of the dialogue in episode 4 or 5 the part where Luke Skywalker fought with Darth Varder it in the radio station menu.

Before i went to Suntec for the show i went to queensway was meeting a friend at the mac there, also edwin was working there for the first day yesterday wanna go and disturb him haha. Also wanted to know some pricing of the magic shop at the 3rd floor cause i want to learn a few trick BUT the price quite high to be a member u have to pay 65 bucks for a year the package include one trick and if you are a member learning other tricks will be 25 bucks per trick whereas if you are not a member it will be 45 bucks so now im considering whether to be one. Some of the tricks are quite cool like levitation and flying card where by the card will keep spinning in mid air follow the direction of your hand. After that went to find edwin haha...he in the shop gong gong de but sad sia he at 3rd floor most boring floor. Only have friends in the shop to talk to and nothing else lucky me that time was at 2nd floor lot of things to do can run around and make friends. Wish him luck in his new job haha...

The Five People You Meet In Heaven

2005-05-20T23:42:00.000+08:00

Hmmm...gonna write this post in paragraph cause someone complain say my post always very long. So writing in paragraph will make it look shorter.

This post is about the book i had read "The Five People You Meet In Heaven", sort of a book review. It a nice book you all should go read it. Give you all a short summary of the book.

Story is about a guy named Eddie, he was 83 years old when he died and in his lifetime he had encounter war and the death of all those close to him. His dad, mum, wife, brother, war mates and others he had cared about. The last hour of his life was spent at his work place, the place which he had spent most of his life time. The Ruby Pier, an amusement park the place where he spent most of his life time at. He died while trying to save a young girl from a faulty ride accident. He was trying to grab the girl away to safety but before he knows whether he saved the girl he was dead.

After he died he was floating to his own heaven, the place where he will meet the five most important of his life. Each person has a lesson to teach him, each was in his life for a reason. Each crossed his path before they died all in his heaven waiting to tell him why they were there.

The first person he met was a blue man someone he didn't know but like what is mention in the previous paragraph that blue man is there for a reason. After the blue man there was his captain the one that was leading them during war follow by Ruby the person which Ruby Pier was named after and there was his wife and a little girl he chance upon during his war time. After all the lesson he will be waiting in heaven to tell someone else his story some he know some he don't know but all has crossed his path before they die and altered it forever. All was there for a reason and now they are telling them why they are there. To know more about what he experience, what he had learned and why they were there go borrow or buy that book to read bout it.

There some quotes from the story that is quite nice like "All endings are also beginnings. We just don't know it at the time"; "The only time we waste is the time we spend thinking we are alone"; "One withers, another grows. Birth and death are part of a whole"; "Strangers are family you have yet to come to know"; "Sacrifices is a part of life. It's supposed to be. It's not something to regret. It's something to aspire."; "Sometimes when you sacrifice something precious, you are not really losing it. You are just passing it on to someone else"; "Holding anger is a poison. It eats you from inside. We think that hating is a weapon that attacks the person who harmed us. But hatred is a curved blade. And the harm we do, we do to ourselves."; "Life has to end, love doesn't"

Ok think my book review isn't really that good but really do take some time out of your busy schedule and read the book it a nice one let you know some of the purpose of life. Makes you treasure everyone around you. Everyone is in your life for a purpose to teach you something to let you learn something. Like what the book said the world is full of stories but the stories are all one. Our life affected others and others affect others and this continues all are but one big stories.

Everyone is the author of a book, a book titled Life. Everyone story is just a chapter of the bigger book and all our life are interwoven some way or another.

If You Fall For Someone Don't Pretend That It Doesn't Matter [Wind]

2005-05-19T15:06:00.000+08:00

Part 3/3 of If You Fall For Someone Don't Pretend That It Doesn't Matter

Wind

Because I like a gal called leaf. Because she's so dependent on tree so I have to be a gust wind. A wind that will blow her away. When I first met her, it was 1 mth after I transfer to the new school. I saw a petite person looking at my seniors & me playing soccer. During ECA time, she will always be sitting there. Be it alone or with her friends looking at him. When he talks with gals there's jealousy in her eyes. When he looked at her, there's a smile in her eyes. Looking at her became my habit. Just like she likes to look at him. One day, she didn't appear. I felt something amissed. I can't explain the feeling except it's a kind of uneasiness. The senior was also not there as well. I went to their classroom, hid outside and saw my senior scolding her. Tears were in her eyes while he left. The next day, I saw her at her usual place, looking at him. I walked over and smiled to her. Took out a note & gave to her. She was surprised. She looked at me, smiled & accept the note. The next day, she appeared & pass me a note and left. Leaf's heart is too heavy and wind couldn't blow her away It's not that leaf heart is too heavy. It because leaf never want to leave tree I replied her note with this statement and slowly she started to talk to me & accept my presents & phone calls. I know that the person she loves is not me. But I have this perseverance that one day I will make her like me. Within 4 mths, I have declared my love for her no less than 20 times. Every time, she will divert away from the topic. But I never give up. If I decide I want her to be mine, I will definitely use all means to win her over. I can't remember how many times I have declared my love to her. Although I know she will try to divert but I still bear a small ray of hope. Hoping that she will agree to me my girlfriend. I didn't hear any reply from her over the phone. I asked "what are you doing? How come you didn't want to reply?" She said, "I'm nodding my head". "Ah?" I couldn't believe my ears. "I'm nodding my head" She replied loudly. I hang up the phone, quickly changed and took a taxi and rush to her place & press her door bell. During the moment when she opens the door. I hugged her tightly. Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay..

If You Fall For Someone Don't Pretend That It Doesn't Matter [Leaf]

2005-05-18T20:20:00.000+08:00

Part 2/3 of If You Fall For Someone Don't Pretend That It Doesn't Matter

Leaf

During Pre-U days, I like to collect leaves. Why? Because I felt that for a leaf to leave the tree she has been relying on for so long it takes a lot of courage. During the 3 years of Pre-U I was on very close terms with a guy. Not BGR kind but as buddy kind. But when he had his 1st girlfriend, I learnt a feeling I never should have learnt - Jealousy. The sourness in the heart can't be describe by using a lemon. It's like 100 rotten sour lemon. Sourness to the extreme limit. They were only together for 2 mths. When they broke up, I hide my strong sense of happiness. But after a mth, he got together with another gal. I like him & I know he like me. But why won't he pursue me? Since he love me why he doesn't want to make the first move? Whenever he had a new girlfriend, my heart would hurt. Time after time, my heart was hurt. I begin to suspect that this is a one sided love. If he don't like me, why does he treat me so well. It's beyond what you will normally do for a friend. Liking a person is very heart wrenching. I can know his likes, his habits. But his feelings towards me I can never figure out. You can't expect me a gal to ask him right? Despite that, I still want to be by his side. Care for him, accompany him, love him. Hoping that one fine day, he will come & love me. It's like waiting for his phone call every night, wanting him to send me sms. I know that no matter how busy he is, he will make time for me. Because of this, I waited for him. The 3 years were the hardest to go through & I really want to give up. Sometimes, I wonder should I continue waiting. The pain and hurt, the dilemma accompany me for 3 years. Till the end of my 3rd year, a 2nd year junior begins to go after me. Everyday he pursuit me relentlessly. From outright rejection to a point in time when I felt that I'm willing to let him have a small footing in my heart. He's like a warm & gentle wind, trying to blow a leaf away from the tree. In the end, I realized that I didn't want to give this wind a small footing in my heart. I know this wind will bring this badly battered leave far away & better land. Finally I left tree, but the tree only smile & didn't ask me to stay. Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay.

If You Fall For Someone Don't Pretend That It Doesn't Matter [Tree]

2005-05-17T21:57:00.000+08:00

This is a romantic story bout love. This is the first part of the story there a total of three part. Enjoy the story.

Part 1/3 of If You Fall For Someone Don't Pretend That It Doesn't Matter

Tree

The reason I'm called tree is because I'm good at painting trees. Overtime I start to use a tree on the right hand corner as a trademark for all my watercolors painting. I have dated 5 gals when I was in Pre-U. There's one gal who I love a lot but never dare go after her. She doesn't have a pretty face, doesn't have a good figure, doesn't have outstanding charm. She is just a very ordinary gal. I like her. I really like her. Like her innocent, like her frankness. Like her cuteness, like her intelligence and her fragility. Reason for not going after her is because I felt somebody so ordinary like her is not a good match for me. I'm also afraid that after we are together all the good feelings will vanish. I'm also afraid other's gossips will hurt her. I felt that if she's my gal, she will be mine ultimately & I don't have to give up everything just for her. The last reason, made her accompany me for 3 years. She watch me chase after gals, and I have make her heart cry for 3 years. She wants to be a good actress and I'm a very demanding director. When I kissed my 2nd girlfriend, she bumped into us. She was embarrassed but smile & say "Go on!" before running off. The next day, her eyes was swollen like a walnut. I purposely didn't want to think about what causes her to cry but laugh at her the whole day. When everybody go back home, she was alone crying in the classroom. She didn't know that I returned from soccer training to get something. I watch her cry for an hour or so. My 4th girlfriend didn't like her. There was once when both of them quarreled. I know that based on her character she's not the type that will start off the quarrel. But I still sided with my girlfriend. I shouted at her and her eyes was filled shocked. I didn't care about her feelings and walked off with my girlfriend. The next day, she still laugh & joke with me like nothing has ever happened. I know that she's very hurt but she didn't know that my heart ache is as bad as hers. When I broke up with my 5th girlfriend, I asked her out. After going out for a day, I told her that I have something to tell her. She told me that coincidentally, she has something to tell me too. I told her about my break up and she told me about her getting together. I know whose the guy. He has been going after her for quite a while. A very cute guy full of energy, lively and interesting. His pursuit for her has been the talk of the school. I can't show her my heart ache but could only smile & congratulate her. When I reach home, the heart ache is so strong that I can't stand it. It's like a heavy weighted stone on my chest. I couldn't breath. Wanted to shout but can't. Tears rolled down & I broke down & cry. How many times have I seen her cry for the man that doesn't acknowledge her presence too. During graduation, I read a sms in my hp. It was send 10 days ago when I broke down and cry. I haven't read it since then. It says "Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay"

Life?

2005-05-16T13:22:00.000+08:00

Life is like a box of chocolates. Cheap, thoughtless, perfunctory gift that nobody ever asks for. Unreturnable because all you get back is another box of chocolates. So you're stuck with this undefinable whipped mint crap that you mindlessly wolf down until there's nothing else left to eat. Sure, once in a while there's a peanut butter cup or english toffee, but they're gone too fast....the taste is fleeting. So you end up with nothing but broken bits filled with hardened jelly and teeth shattering nuts. If you're desperate enough to eat those all you got left is an empty box filled with useless brown paper wrappers

quoted from my fren shannon
http://shinning-sun.blogspot.com

Night Life In Singapore

2005-05-15T02:53:00.000+08:00

hm...suddenly thought of this topic...night life in singapore...is there really night life in singapore? what do those people in singapore who sleep late do? come to think of it...the first time i was home late was during my sec 2...there this once i went to celebrate my friend birthday and we went to west coast...sat down at the playground and talk about a lot of things...there a saying time passes the fastest when you are enjoying...well that applies to me too...we were happliy talking away when my mobile rang...it my father asking me where i am...and i realise it already 1am...that the first time i was outside until so late...still remember i was scolded by my parent when i was back home...anyway that was the first time i know what the feeling of being outside at such a late time...the feeling is peace...everything around you is so quiet so peaceful...and if anyone from that group at that time happen to read this...i can say that one of my best chats i ever have...back to now...in singapore is there night life? there are a few different kind of night life...there the group who frequent clubs and pubs...what we call "chiong" or "clubbing"...there also another group the couple group...out in the night sitting under the sky lying down and watch the stars...another kind is those like me...like to ask a couple of friends out and talk about our life...jus find a place to sit down and pour our heart out...oh and one more kind...those at home who can't stay out late due to parent and they just stay up late watching television program using the computer....there may be other group out there but to me there only this 4 group...as i have said personally i like the 3rd kind...find a group of friends and pour our heart out you will discover how special it is...you feel better after that...find one day and try that out and you will know what i mean...people always say night is the beginning of fun..well i do agree it really is the beginning of fun...we enjoy the night chilling out...but other than that there nothing else we can do in singapore during the night...there isn't much shop that open up late into the night...or maybe even 24 hours...seriously for me there really nothing for me to do at night other then chatting with friends and staying at home surfing the net...some may not agree but that only my personal opinon...well think that all i have to say whether onot there is night life in singapore it all up to you...the way you think and the way you look at it...if you want to voice out anything just leave it in the tagboard...

All About Work

2005-05-09T22:24:00.000+08:00

worked yst buffet sia easy do but turn over sian...haha...thn after tt ash ask me wanna extend onot until 11 thn ok lo more money oso thn do turnover do alot of thing la...by the time finish 10 like tt haha...thn lawerence put 11 haha...after tt go change and collect money jus nice timing for money...after tt went hm...thn todae work again 11-4 do lunch heng buffet again...and i finally noe hw to carry the oblong tray...thn do turnover hardwork oso...always turnover hardest...30ibm thn needa frame and lot of stuff la...do until 4 like tt anqi say wan go liao say wan go learn swimming sia...hahahah...cant believe...thn work alone lo...wif some others...my the time finish my stuff 5 like tt thn wanna extend de saw lawerence ask him need ppl onot he say he gt too mani liao...kao...thn go back they oso say no need liao...wan extend oso cannot haha...haiz...wan more money oso no chance....after tt go office sign out wha kao thn kanna caught hair...haha...kanna caught by sam and a malay gal...say mus gel up and cut haha...sianz ar if no go hm early sure no kanna caught one...thn orh orh orh jiu go liao...found out vince and guan xu workin oso thn thomas as usual dun tink he will work la...oh thn tis morning saw guan xu wif a gal nt bad lookin oso i tink sort of forgot her face liao...change everythin thn go hm lo halfway on bus thn tink wan cut hair onot haha...thn in the end go cut thn trim my eyebrow oso whahahah...5 bucks thn trim lo haha...after tt go makan thn go hm bath and nw here i am blogging haha...anyway tink tt all...-off-

First Day At Work

2005-05-04T13:30:00.000+08:00

erm...started work last sun haha...quite funni and enjoyable day...dunno hw to use serving gear the fork and spoon tt one...thn cut fish tt time the fish become dunno wat haha...the guest oso bo bian only can stare aha...u all can go imagine hw they look la...a fish tt like shit haha...anyway gonna work tis thur and sun thn tink need do nxt wk bookin le but thn dunno wanna do a few days only or wat sia...scare wait i dunno hw to do thn sian liao...but thn sch gonna start le needa faster chiong liao sian ar sometime life jus so boring...thn shaun nt workin liao heard tt deenie nt workin oso...sianz...banquet bit hard work oso...hahabut depend wat function ba i tink...tt time me is wedding thn everythin needa fast fast fast...thn did OT oso..in the end work until 2.30 thn worked for 8hr gt 48 bucks...after tt met up wif shaun and xiao mei after tt waited for ash lawerence and fel and salime(dunno hw to spell his name haha) thn went to eat at spitz lol thn shaun work for his chicken burger until dulan thn dun wan eat liao...thn xiao mei long bang cab...by the time reach hm round 5 like tt...lol thn i reach hm the ex president die...kao...after tt time talk to cel for awhile thn go slp le round 6 like tt ba nxt day round 1 like tt wake up...thn watch labour day show lo and oso make the new blogskin...quite hardwork sia...tis show tt thse ppl at blogskin.com realli beri free sia haha...erm...tink tt all cya ppl-off-

Double Happiness

2005-05-01T05:42:00.000+08:00

haha so happy todae...yst my laptop finally arrive thn yst oso gt creative sale at caltex house thn bought a mp3 shiok ar one day gt 2 new gadget...haha..erm..lata gonna go qw and buy leather shoe for work...tml gonna work at corpthrone take over deenie slot she asked me wan onot so i anythin lo...hope tml dun make a fool out of myself haha...erm...after watch finish show thn help my mama do finish the tax thing thn go qw liao...and i found out somethin sia...gt cpf thn mus gib tax liao haha...thn banquet wrok as part time gt cpf thn needa pay haha heng i no need cuz i dun haf any in my cpf...tt time work qw there no cpf de haha...topid sia...sianz anyway tink tt all-off-

Starting Work Soon

2005-04-29T17:02:00.000+08:00

hmmm....jus reach hm...jus nw 6.30 like tt gene called me asked me wanna go town onot..deenie and anqi already there...thn anythin lo anyway at hm slack so long until sian liao...arrange to meet gene at the bus stop infront of hereen cuz taking 16 thn forgot 16 is nt at hereen drop is at the one after it...by the time reach there already 7.30...thn he told he deenie and anqi at jack place and he dunno where is it haha...the jack place at hereen beri pian pi de haha...reach liao deenie and anqi already eat finish le haha...thn me and gene ordered thn while waiting he did topid stuff haha...thn gt a gal keep lookin at us quite chio sia haha...we ate steak haha...half done when eat finish still gt the topid blood taste in my mouth...anyway after tt deenie said needa do some stuff for his fren usin a com so needa go hm so everyone oso go hm...deenie takes the same bus as me so went together...after tt ask her wanna use my hse com onot thn no need so mafan thn ok lo...in the end cannot make the thing...the disc spoil cant load into com...but thn she still needa go back corpthrone cuz she needa return the fone...ask me to go wif her haha...anythin ba...went there to noe around anyway gonna start work there...after tt went to eat wanton mee...thn when done already quite late le no bus liao so walked hm...lucky quite near only...on the way hm tt time talk crap haha...and one topic leads to another talk talk talk until we talk bout hometown...and guess wat she and me papa come frm same hometown LOL...knew each other for round 2 yr and tis the 1st time i noe bout it LOL...thn rest of the journey we tried to figure out where we living haha...thn tink our hse quite near ba haha...lol knew each other for 2 yr and tis the 1st time i noe she live me papa there hahah...anyway after tt send her hm and by the time i read hm already 1.15am...whole body full of sweat went to bath and nw doin tis...haha...seems like sg realli quite small haha...found someone whose hometown is where i went every year haha...anyway tt all..cya-off-

Love

2005-04-26T09:31:00.000+08:00

called corpthrone todae and my application for banquet is accepted nw waitin to do bookin only...sianz money is jus so impt without money there nth u can do...though they always say money cant buy u friendship and stuff...argh dunno la...sianz la...nw waiting for my laptop to come only cant wait for it to be delivered...wonder hw life will be when sch start bored or exciting or jus slack thru poly life...dunno la...sianz la...watched the channel U show last nite tiramisu a nice show...quite touchin but would such stuff happen in real life? excluding the death part...-off-

Depressed

2005-04-24T15:12:00.000+08:00

im gettin depression hah...feel so useless...cant do tis cant do tt...im tired of walking...in the cold and lonely rain...reality is jus so hurtful...come to tink of it i haf achieve nth...i dun even noe wat i gonna be...wat my aim...

Im A Lazy Guy

2005-04-22T10:38:00.000+08:00

yst lazy to blog so blog todae...erm...finally settle my laptop thing went to np to make the payment thn there was a bunch of gals there haha quite chio haha...anyway tt was on tue...thn yst went to corpthrone to interview wth sia...woke up early cuz vince say the interview at 10 thn woke up at 9.30 waited for thomas by the time everythin ready 10.30 already...thn reach tiong liao called vince...he late again as usual thn he took cab down to tiong and bring us to corpthrone and wat shit sia...reach there already they told us the interview time changed to 2.30...thn sianz lo woke up so early for nth...so went back to tiong thn meet guan xu after tt went tot he food court to eat...thn me and guan xu talked bout some books by dan brown...erm...seems like he a good writer his books are nice...anyway after tt vince say go play mahjong thn i anythin lo...but thn needa go hm 1st...reach hm already lie on bed and bu zhi bu jue fell aslp by the time i woke up 2 already...thn recieved a msg say go on sat instead of wed cuz they wanna go swimming...sianz 1/2...anyway i went alone dun wanna waste time already...by the time i gt ready 2.30 already only haf 1/2hr time to reach there cuz the interview until 3 luckily reach there in time...went to the office and gt a application form...after tt still gt wat orientation diaoz...the orientation was topid 1st ask us to read a paper they had gave us like oral sia haha...thn explain some stuff after tt photocopied our identification thing thn can go liao...erm...gt quite some ppl go for interview sia...din expect there tot only me or few others only...anyway after tt went hm and slack thn start readin angel and demon by dan brown...finish it todae erm..a nice book and the pic in it is nice some ambigram thing...one day gonna learn drawing it...erm...tink tt all for tis post...-off-

A Day Out With Shaun

2005-04-19T14:52:00.000+08:00

erm...todae a mon woke up at 12 thn wanna go np to settle my laptop stuff de in the end din go cuz it was raining heavy lazy to use umbrella ahha...thn i msg my cousin ask him wanna go np onot dun wanna go alone but thn he cannot make it he goin to meet his gf so nvm lo...thn gene msg me say he in town again haha he been in town for 4days haha...anyway he went to do his hair thn gonna settle his enrollment stuff so asked him wanna go np onot he oso nt free cuz after he done he go find kenny yeo and accompany him go medical checkup hahah and kenny yeo is in some IT course in nyp haha...so wait lo wait for rain stop and see wanna go onot...thn at hm slack around slack until 2.45 like tt shaun called...ask me where me thn say he at queensway cant find me...of cuz cant find me la i quit long ago liao haha...tt time already told him liao anyway he went down to alter his jeans thn needa wait 1hr thn he ask me go down accompany him so i anythin lo so up to tis point my plan to go settle laptop thing gone liao...well it can wait till tml anyway the deadline is apr29...thn still needa help me dad do some stuff before i can go find him by the time i finish everythin ready to go 45mins has pass haha...thn went down find him...reach there liao 10mins like tt the jeans ok liao thn went opp take 195 go kim seng play pool vince there oso...reach at 4.45 thn played for 1hr lol thn found out nt enuff money only gt 7 bucks and needa pay 7.80 thn take frm vince haha...after tt went over to food junction at great world all no money thn i go draw money and share haha...pathetic put 100 bucks in a/c cuz initial amount mus be 100 thn nxt day withdraw 50 liao thn nw take another 20 left 30 haha...only opened the a/c last thur and nw left 30 liao anyway eat liao slack around at great world thn went to the time zone saw hanwei kx chee how and yong kang...see them play game thn go take hanwei card and play haha only gt 95cents played house of dead 2 wif kx jus nice 2 credit lol since free game thn anyhw play haha...after tt found a card at 1st tot no credit de thn i go swipe lolx inside gt 2.60 thn went to play time crsis and daytona wif hanwei haha...free 2.60credit haha...thn after play finish go bus stop take bus thn vince say wanna rush hm thn he treat cab anythin lo free de haha...thn ask shaun to pull me in to banquet he say go interview thn say go on wed...so nw plan go on wed if accepted thn by sun i can make bookin thn nxt wk can start work liao...erm...tt all for todae...anyway tml mus go settle laptop stuff liao...-off-

Im Broke

2005-04-17T06:38:00.000+08:00

it sat todae and im at home...argh no money go out broke liao so jialat...sianz...suppose to go some charity thing today lolx...can believe it rite...me do charity work haha...the charity work is youth challenge de...tt time actually wanna go ask bout some fee of a trip to sri lanka thn i was so ex wtf...i go there help ppl still needa pay 1.5k...1.5K LEH SO EX...might as well add somemore bucks thn can buy com liao kao...go help ppl still need pay so much wat shit sia...thn tt topid executive president tok like an ah beng thn still go say ah beng nt gd...look ppl no up hahah...anyway i tell them i nt goin thn they say gt other local work go help elderly haha...thn i say nw nt free gt poly stuff to settle lolx...thn say when wan go will contact them...oh ya tt day me is go wif gene hahah...GENE SEOW hah...he oso wanna do charity work ahha...sianz ar...a nice sat and i gotta stay home cuz im broke left wif only 20+ bucks wanna buy alot of things de but....anyway tml a sun and i need go Qing Ming sianz...hot hot hot...gene asked me out tonite say go watch movie but thn no money leh thn is after 11pm...diaoz...k ba tink tt all cant tink of anythin to write nw...-off-

First Day!!!

2005-04-14T18:14:00.000+08:00

finally done wif editing of the blog it 3.12 nw and im still nt slpin lolx...hey guys tis my 1st time lolx...so do gib some comments ya...anyway take care guys...and wish u all luck in ur new polys and do keep in touch...-off-